I Can’t Imagine Not Being A Submissive Husband
I requested my wife that she allow me to make a donation to ConquerHim because of the effect you have had on our relationship.
I ran across ConquerHim on Youtube, while looking for sites with dominant women. I watched several of the Queenie videos and they immediately struck a cord. I always felt that I am a submissive man but because of social norms and lack of knowledge I have not really come to terms with that until now.
As far back as I can remember my fantasies always involved a dominant sexual encounter with a forceful woman. This was to the point where I had difficulty achieving orgasm in the usual on top position without fantasizing about submission. I asked a therapist about this once and he advised that I just accept this part of me as who I am.
My wife is a kind, loving person with a full figure which I always found to be a turn on. We were very compatible intellectually. She was mostly a stay at home Mom raising our children and I fortunately was able to make enough to allow that. We had some rough years and nearly split but held on though without much passion. Our kids are out of the house and I retired a few years ago with just some very part-time work. She remained busy with hobbies, friends and volunteering. After I found ConquerHim I went to link after link to learn more about how FLR works and how it was OK for me to own my submissiveness (which by the way made my work frustrating at times with my inability to assert.)
I found cair4.com, worshipyourwife.com and read both books Mark Redmond wrote. I also enjoyed elisesutton.com, rwddh.com and mistressivey.blogspot.com being the main ones I looked to for advice. From each site, including ConquerHim, I found information that resonated and other info that I rejected as being too humiliating, D/s or involving activities I had no interest in. But each site would give me at least one or more revelations.
After some weeks I summoned up the courage to have a ‘pillow talk’ with my wife before we had sex (her on top for the last many years.) To my great relief she agreed. I shared some of the sites I had looked at. She was already controlling the sex food group by telling me when our next ‘date’ was. After all the reading I decided to stop all pornography viewing which I was ashamed of anyway. I also entered volunteer chastity which I have with only one exception in the last 3 months been able to maintain. These two decisions made a huge difference in my making her my Goddess and the only woman I fantasized about. I developed a strong submissive crush and could not tell her enough how much I loved and adored her and how attractive I found her.
I apologized for my past behavior in not supporting her and honoring her wishes and opinions. I asked her to take control of all the remaining food groups which she has done with the exception of the investment part of our retirement. I have always handled the investments and she has no interest in controlling that part, but now I give her regular reports about how we are doing. I ask her permission on all big expenditures. When we bought a new car for her recently I did the research and came up with recommendations but it was her decision as to which car, model, options, color etc.
I have written many love notes for her to read about my love and adoration. I make the coffee and bring it her in bed and close the door to allow her quiet while I do dishes or other housework. Every day I get down before her on my knees and pledge my love and obedience as her submissive husband. We have become extremely close and affectionate.
She gets regular pedis and frequent massages. I do a lot but not all of the house work. I’m naturally more into neatness than she is anyway. She is a very good cook and likes to do that so my role there is to support and handle doing the barbecue. There is more I could relate but bottom line we are in love like we have never been before. We are still figuring things out, but I can’t imagine relating to her in any other way but as her submissive husband. Thank you to Queenie and the other FLR trailblazers.