I Gain Strength From Demonstrating Obedience
I wanted to express a few feelings and sentiments regarding the often contentious issues of ‘obedience’ and ‘polyandry’ within the context of a committed FLR. As it happens, both these ideas work well for us and have contributed to our mutual love and respect but they are not easy concepts to embrace. Nor are they one dimensional. They are multi-layered and there is sub-text to them. The cold clinical definitions are probably not enough to sustain a long-term FLR and to search for the delights to be discovered in their deeper meaning probably requires time and patience. A lot of it.
Obedience, for example, goes far beyond command and obey. It can be that but, for us at least, it’s probably a whole lot more. My Lady encourages me to discuss most things with her, sometimes for days, and to offer my opinions where appropriate. I do all I can to help her arrive at the best decision. Once made, her decision is final and she expects and appreciates my immediate attentiveness. I want to honour her wishes. She understands, accepts and nurtures my belief in the formidable power of her feminine intelligence and thus takes her leadership role seriously and conscientiously. She regards my obedience to her as a precious gift, one she likes to have on display.
We are a triad of sorts. I have mentioned before on the Conquer Him site that my Lady has a devoted lover who is much younger than myself and who continues to be an increasingly important part of our lives. Although I certainly accept that this kind of 3-way relationship isn’t going to work for everybody, it has been a blessing for us. It has enabled her to express herself creatively as a sensual confident woman and to enjoy being the Goddess to her attentive ‘boys’.
I’m not sure if it makes me a cuckold or not, the definition has always been unclear to me. We don’t have a 3-way sexual relationship, in fact we males don’t see each other very often. Her lover lives a short distance away. When she wants to be with him he will usually come here and collect her, they’ll go out then back to his place. Occasionally they will come back here and she’ll direct me to sleep in the spare room. She has led me to appreciate the complexities of her needs and emotions, the importance of keeping them close to my heart and soul and how best to utilize all that she has taught me in order to become a better, more submissive servant to her.
Also, I gain great strength – spiritually, emotionally and otherwise – from demonstrating my complex obedience to her infinitely more complex, intelligent and articulate directives, wishes and mere whims, and from seeing her natural dominance over me bloom so beautifully each time she embraces her lover in my presence.